So it's begun

The start of a new season is the end of another. For years I've struggled between the realities of what I can do and what I want to do. What is possible, what I dream about and just how large is the gap between? Can I manage to cross what could possibly be a great divide? Maybe the mystery leap is something totally possible with small, careful steps (??).

"Your word is a lamp to my feet and a light to my path." (Psalm 119:105)

It was a scripture that seemed more like Mom's chicken noodle soup than anything else. Sure it comforted me but I had no idea how this hot liquid food made me feel safe at home or what this meant until one day I was told that in biblical times the shepherd's would walk with a lamp at their feet for seeing where they stood, and a light on the end of a pole for seeing where they were walking towards. In between these lights - darkness. Uncertain steps unless you had seen where you are going and where you stand.

I find myself a recent graduate from the Bethel School of Supernatural Worship in Redding, CA after quitting my corporate, all-consuming job. Bethel has always been a place close to my heart. They have a community there that functions as a culture of honor where the expectation of God is that He is in a good mood and is looking to release mercy upon all creation. I took a month out of the normal rhythms of life to learn more about who I am and what worshiping God really means. In order for me to quit the j-o-b and to get me to California we needed an estimated 5 thousand dollars for bills, tuition, food, travel & lodging. After about $400 came in we made the decision to go and shortly after about half the total sum came in - enough to buy airline tickets, tuition and lodging. We made the travel arrangements and paid for them without our bills or food money in sight. Within the week everything came in for us to have all we needed. This uncertain step was made with a safe-landing on what we felt God had said - "go".

There are dreams in my heart that have come true as husband, father and son and others that have yet to be fulfilled. Charissa and I have agreed that the season was upon us to launch out into the desires of our hearts. No more time for uncertainty and leaning upon the wisdom of men. No more time gauging the proverbial darkness in between who I am and where I'm going. It's time to step out on the promises we've been given. I know I will be in the studio, in the church, outside the church and my call is singular - to prepare the way for the Lord. All the details haven't been sorted but the pursuit has never been more sure. If you like to read about ordinary folks stepping into the unknown to see them become who they are made to be, then this is a place for you.